05 December 2012

Love is so short, forgetting, so long.


Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines 
(an excerpt) Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held him in my arms
I kissed him again and again under the endless sky.
 
He loved me sometimes, and I loved him too.
How could one not have loved his great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without him.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep him.
The night is shattered and he is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

My sight searches for him as though to go to him.
My heart looks for him, and he is not with me.


Loss, I learned, is a very difficult thing to deal with. Even years cannot easily mend it. And during these days, all you can do is look back--way back--when everything was better, and remind yourself to be thankful you had that memory to remember in the first place.

Happy birthday, pops.

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