20 July 2012
Run & Read
The truth is I have always been afraid to show anyone anything I write for one sole reason: my writing is crap (see what I did there? I'm saying it now, so I said it first before you even think it later). No matter how much I love writing, it embarrasses me because I know too many people who loves it so much more and in a way I probably never can. And so for a very long time, I didn't write at all. I was content telling myself that I'm not good enough and trying would only make me seem like a phony. I feel that way about myself a lot already, so I didn't want to add any more insult to injury.
It wasn't until a few days ago, when during a momentary foray into self-pity, I was told: "that's the problem with you--you don't trust yourself." And Lulu's right; I don't. I care far too much about what other people think. But somehow I must have found a little courage in our conversation, as here I am now about to announce a supposedly-private blog I started a few weeks ago for writing. Maybe it's the few likes on my posts, or maybe Lulu's "we don't have the right to judge other people's struggles" that did it, but whatever it is, I hope it'll be enough to keep me from scurrying back to my burrow. I know, I am so full of drama.
You can visit the site here. The latest post, Your Door, is for dear Lulu, not only for being such a good comfort to me, but for being--once--such an idiot for love as the rest of the world. I love you Luls!